The morning had already begun before the sun fully rose.
The kitchen light was on. The sound of the pressure cooker filled the silence of the house.
A school uniform hung neatly on the chair, slightly wrinkled at the sleeves.
Neha stood near the stove, stirring the vegetables absentmindedly. Her eyes moved toward the clock.
6:30 AM.
“Kabir… uth jao beta, bus ka time ho jayega…”
No response.
She wiped her hands on her dupatta and walked toward the bedroom. Kabir was still wrapped in his blanket, one leg outside, hair messy, face peaceful in sleep.
For a moment… she just stood there. Watching him. Then gently—
“Kabir…”
He turned, half-awake. “Mumma… 5 minute…”
Neha smiled faintly. “5 minute se kuch nahi hota… jaldi uthna hai.” She pulled the blanket slowly. Kabir finally sat up, rubbing his eyes.
The next half hour moved quickly. Toothbrush, Uniform, Shoes that were never where they were supposed to be.
“Mumma, mere shoes kahan hai?”
“Bed ke neeche dekho…”
"nahi hai…”
Neha bent down, pulled it out herself, and handed it over without saying anything.
She had learned—some things are faster when done silently.
At the dining table, Kabir sat swinging his legs. “Mumma, aaj PT period hai…”
“Haan?”
“Mujhe bat le jana hai…”
Neha paused.
“Kal kyun nahi bataya?”
Kabir shrugged.
“Bhool gaya…”
She looked at the clock again.
7:15 AM.
“Thik hai, jaldi khao… main bag mein daal deti hoon.”
The bus horn echoed faintly from the street. “Chalo chalo chalo!” Kabir quickly wore his shoes and grabbed his bag. Neha walked him to the gate. As always.
Same place.
Same moment.
Every day.
Kabir turned back just before stepping out. “Mumma…”
“Haan?”
He hesitated. Not fully sure why he was asking.
“Mumma… sabke papa unhe bus tak chhodne aate hain…”
Neha didn’t react immediately.
Kabir continued—
“Mere Papa kyun nahi aate?”
The question stayed in the air. Simple. Straight. Unprepared.
Neha felt something tighten inside her chest. But her face remained calm. She bent slightly to his level.
“Main hoon na…”
Kabir looked at her. Trying to understand. Then quietly asked—
“Par papa kab aayenge?”
There it was. The question. The one she never had a ready answer for.
For a second… just a second… She had nothing.
No words.
No explanation.
Only a silence that felt heavier than anything. The bus horn sounded again. Kabir waited.
Not impatient. Just expecting.
Neha gently adjusted his collar. Her fingers were steady. Her voice softer than usual.
“Papa… ab humare dil me rehte hain, beta…”
Kabir didn’t react much.
Children don’t always react immediately. They absorb first.
“Par sabke Papa sath hote hain… samne dikhte hain”
Neha nodded slightly. “Haan…”
A pause.
Then she held his face in her hands. “But tumhare paas main hoon.”
Kabir looked at her. Then gave a small nod. Not fully understanding. But accepting… for now. He ran toward the bus. Turned once. Waved. “Mumma, bye!”
Neha waved back. “Bye beta…”
The bus door closed. And just like that— The moment ended.
The street became quiet again. The same gate. The same house. But something had shifted.
Neha walked back inside slowly. The kitchen still smelled of breakfast. The plates were still on the table. Everything looked the same. But her mind was not.
She stood still for a moment. Then sat down on the chair. The one Kabir had just left. Her eyes fell on his half-finished glass of milk. She didn’t touch it. Just stared. That one question… echoed again.
“Papa kab aayenge?”
There are some questions in life… That don’t have answers. Only moments. Moments where you choose: To break Or to hold yourself together for someone else.
Neha stood up. Picked up the glass. Walked to the sink. Washed it quietly. And then— Started her day. Like always.
Some things don’t stop. Not time. Not responsibilities. And not a mother… who has no choice but to move forward. And somewhere, deep inside— a new strength had already begun forming…
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